The Doctor's office called this morning and they said that all the test came back negative and normal. That's what I suspected. What I didn't count on is Nurse T saying that they thought I OVULATED that day I came in to test (last Thursday). WHAT!!!!! That is sooooooo frustrating to me. So, what you're saying is I was sick, bleeding and ovulating?! I asked her why this could be since it didn't seem like it would be around that time no matter what cycle calendar you were using. She simply said, "Well it's probably because you are Polycystic and you just never know when." Also re-stated in that conversation which I thought was said a bit cavalierly (but I don't think it was on purpose) "Well your progesterone was so high that we thought you were pregnant but you weren't. Then we think you ovulated that day or a day or two before or you were going to soon. (?!@#$#@!!) But you Ovulated so that's good."
Ya a lot of good that does me for me to spontaneously ovulate after being "regular" for two months and for you to not get my results to me until 5 days after the test; past when I could have done anything to try to make a baby this month. Grrr.
I was curious as to what would happen if I took an ovulation test today so I took one that I had left over from last month. It came back with light positive line but it was really light. Probably not much a chance there because I haven't been 'doin it' all weekend because I was freaked out as to what was happening to me...oh and because I'm not hip on 'gettin it on' when I'm surfin' the crimson wave.
All that to say they were supposed to call back this afternoon (which they haven't) so we can "Regroup" and decide what to do now with the Metformin (probably increase my dose) and other such things.
Any thoughts anyone? Have you dealt with anything like this? Anyone with PCOS experience such messed up cycles?
Wow this has been a totally, completely frustrating week. It wouldn't be so bad if everything wasn't all crazy. It's like things went totally haywire this month. Who knows. It will happen when it happens but man I am reminded around every turn how out of control I really am- in this process and on a larger scale as well. Which is hard for me...for most of us: to be out of control.
What I know that I need to do is to be kind to myself. I know that I need to do my best to remember truth, to appreciate that my body works well (well... most of the time) and that just because I don't fit a "medical norm" that it doesn't make me a freak. No two people are the same and different things work for different people in a host of varying ways. Those are the things I need to remember. And to take deep breathes and relax with myself, my expectations and to enjoy all the good that is going on in my life each and every day! All I can say is I'm trying.
Right now the lyrics to the Michelle Branch song Breathe are playing in my head.
"Breathe"
I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
You say I've been driving you crazy
and its keeping you away
So just give me one good reason
Tell me why I should stay
'Cause I dont wanna waste another moment
in saying things we never meant to say
And I take it just a little bit
I, hold my breath and count to ten
I, I've been waiting for a chance to let you in
If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
Well it's all so overrated
In not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade
And wondering what's real
And I give you just a little time
I, Wonder if you realize
I've been waiting till I see it in your eyes
If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
Breathe
So I whisper in the dark,
Hoping you hear me
Do you hear me?
If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
Everything is alright if i just breathe... breathe
I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
2 comments:
Wow.
First off, is the dr's office someplace you HAVE to go or feel comfortable with?
High progesterone does not indicate pregnancy and I think it sucks that they ever even said to you that this could be the case. Often times, dr's will do a day 21 progesterone blood draw (7DPO) and this will tell them if you oulated. I have never heard of anyone getting high progesterone and told they must have ovulated "that day."
My PCOS has been a real pain. When I wasn't being monitored throughout my cycles with sonograms and blood work, the whole thing was a crap shoot. I had cycles that went on for months and I would get positive OPKs for weeks on end.
I am so sorry for the confusion on this cycle.
*hugs*
Oh crap, sorry for the negative results. And that is SO weird that your cycle is all over the place. I am with Mel, do you have to go to this doctor? Maybe you could ask for a new one! I have been told I have PCOS too, don't really believe that, but anyways. When I am on any kind of drug they do a cycle day 21 blood work to see if I ovulated, they should be doing that for you too! Like they should not be finding out now that you are ovualting now! It's just crazy. Also for a lot of girls with PCOS ovulation sticks don't work. Cause our hormones are so messed up sometimes they give us false readings. My doc said not to use them and instead is doing ultra sound and bloodwork monotoring to determine when I am ovualting. I would ask some serious questions to this doctor of yours!!
Sorry about the crazyness, I hope thigns start to make sense soon!
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