Me and My Grumpy Self!

I'm really frustrated today. No AF yet. No real signs or symptoms of being pregnant. Just Nothing. Grrr! For me it is Cycle Day 40. 40! Are you kidding me?! Since February it hasn't been this long before... usually somewhere around 36-38 days. Since I don't feel pregnant at all I just wish that my stupid period would come so that it would be over soon and we could move on with Baby Quest 08.

I am however a huge ball of hormones... and not the sweet kind that make you overly sappy or overly kind, nope I have the ugly ones: moody, irritable, quick tempered, sad. Oh and then there's the tired factor. I'm just feel weary. Like my body is all out of whack, which I suppose is a correct characterization. Woke up this morning sort of feeling like I was getting a cold or a sinus infection. It's eased somewhat throughout the day but the lethargic, unproductive, self critical feelings are still in full effect.

Sorry to be so grumpy today. Nothing in my world is particularly bad or off or stressful (except for the not being able to create life thing). I realize that. But this is how it is today.

And, no, I don't want to do a pregnancy test because it is a test I feel I will surely fail. I already feel crappy so I don't want to reinforce that. I know it doesn't really change anything it just seems sadistic (I still might do it later this week if nothing changes though). I'm not up for it on Father's Day. I don't want to announce to Hubby, "Hey you know how we thought I wasn't with child... well, we were right!"

I don't want to do anything. I'm just sitting here watching Extreme Home Makeover. Don't want to make dinner, don't want to go to the store (though I need things like eggs & milk), don't want to sleep, don't want to talk, don't want to play wii, don't even really want to watch tv.

Seriously, aren't a I peach today?! With my self indulgent attitude now in check I shall end this for the evening.

Hope today you are feeling loved and appreciate it because I'm positive you deserve it!!