You Say It's Your Birthday!

Tomorrow's my birthday! Hooray for me! The big 2-8! Twenty-Eight is great! That shall be my positive affirmation.

It was a good weekend. Friday night we went to dinner with some of our friends and in honor of my impending birthday we got a piece of the most AMAZING chocolate cake! It was seriously as big as my head! It was delicious. It was so huge (and delish) that we have been eating it since Friday. In Saturday we hung out, ran some errands and had a triple feature at home. Three movies back to back to back. We usually don't watch movies very often but we had a fun movie marathon. On Sunday we slept in and played some Mario Kart on the Wii. Then we went to dinner with my parents to celebrate. It was lovely!

Only non-lovely thing about this weekend is that at CD45 AF arrived with a vengeance! Boo! And so the new cycle begins...

Me and My Grumpy Self!

I'm really frustrated today. No AF yet. No real signs or symptoms of being pregnant. Just Nothing. Grrr! For me it is Cycle Day 40. 40! Are you kidding me?! Since February it hasn't been this long before... usually somewhere around 36-38 days. Since I don't feel pregnant at all I just wish that my stupid period would come so that it would be over soon and we could move on with Baby Quest 08.

I am however a huge ball of hormones... and not the sweet kind that make you overly sappy or overly kind, nope I have the ugly ones: moody, irritable, quick tempered, sad. Oh and then there's the tired factor. I'm just feel weary. Like my body is all out of whack, which I suppose is a correct characterization. Woke up this morning sort of feeling like I was getting a cold or a sinus infection. It's eased somewhat throughout the day but the lethargic, unproductive, self critical feelings are still in full effect.

Sorry to be so grumpy today. Nothing in my world is particularly bad or off or stressful (except for the not being able to create life thing). I realize that. But this is how it is today.

And, no, I don't want to do a pregnancy test because it is a test I feel I will surely fail. I already feel crappy so I don't want to reinforce that. I know it doesn't really change anything it just seems sadistic (I still might do it later this week if nothing changes though). I'm not up for it on Father's Day. I don't want to announce to Hubby, "Hey you know how we thought I wasn't with child... well, we were right!"

I don't want to do anything. I'm just sitting here watching Extreme Home Makeover. Don't want to make dinner, don't want to go to the store (though I need things like eggs & milk), don't want to sleep, don't want to talk, don't want to play wii, don't even really want to watch tv.

Seriously, aren't a I peach today?! With my self indulgent attitude now in check I shall end this for the evening.

Hope today you are feeling loved and appreciate it because I'm positive you deserve it!!

Ha Ha Ha Ha Stayin' Alive...

Ya I'm alive. Yes I'm a delinquent blogger. True my life is pretty boring right now.

Summer is here and that means that until we take kids to Camp work slows down... like a lot. Praise The Lord because I was feeling pretty burned out. I've kind of been in hiding. And relishing it.

This last weekend was my sweet Hub's birthday! We celebrated all weekend. On Friday his parents came to stay with us overnight to celebrate. We grilled out and I made some delicious creations including Frito Bandito Salad (which is way better than it sounds), Fruit Salad with a delish dip and Strawberry Cupcakes with chocolate frosting! Saturday, his actual birthday, we hung out with his parents. Showed them around his work campus and new office, went to lunch at a yummy seafood restaurant on the lake and then took it easy the rest of the day. That night we watched movies and snuggled! It was bliss! On Sunday we played things low-key and that night my parents came over and brought dinner to celebrate. It was a GREAT weekend.

On the baby front... well... nothing much going on... yet. I'm keeping the faith though. After having been told at the beginning of May that they thought I had ovulated during my period I spent some time and effort talking to Dr. W and getting the facts straightened out. She said that she DID NOT believe that I had ovulated then (like the nurse said). So I ended up getting my blood drawn the last week of May to check my Progesterone levels. That was the week I would have been ovulating (if my cycle was 38 days which it has been since February). She said the tough part was that we could miss the surge by a few days on either side so it wasn't fully conclusive. And I guess we did because I got it came back low. But by my calculator I got my blood taken on Tuesday and my O window was to start on Wednesday and increase through Saturday and then taper off after that. Who even knows. She did up my Metformin by 1 dose bringing my total dosage up to 1000 mg. So technically this could be the two week wait but I'm not expecting anything this month. I'm mostly interested to see if my period stays at 38 days or if it changes either way. Way low expectations. Kind of sad, but just being realistic.

That's my update for what it's worth.

Hope all is well with you my friends!

Much Love To You!